A Love Letter

My dearest hubby,

I don't know why, but I am missing you so much nowadays. I can't explain it. It is a mystery to me. Everything reminds me of you. I went to the mall the other day and I saw all the couples there holding hands and speaking soft words of love to each other. I missed you so much that day.


The rain and the sun reminds me of you. If I were to see a handsome,smiling face...I am reminded of you. Your name....although I never utter it...I often hear it over the radio on some song request show or even on TV.


I stare at your photo all the time. My body is growing weak. You are the battery that will energize me my sweetheart. Sometimes I am so stubborn...wanting you to be with me right now and right here. I then realize that it is not possible at the moment and then I am patient again. Patient only for a short while.


I want you my darling. I ask myself when is this going to end? After all, I am your wife who's so deeply in love with you. I am not complete without you and you know it my love. I long for the day when I can be in your arms forever. I want to make passionate,hot love to you. Just want to show you how much I love you. I can't wait. But I know that I have to because patience is a virtue. In the end, we will be together...I am so sure of that.


I never knew that you can occupy my thoughts so much. I have never craved for anyone in my life. I have only craved for my favourite food. But now, food takes a back seat and I constantly crave for you.


Until I hear from you my life and my only love, your wife reluctantly waits here for you. :(

Love always
Wife

PS- You do know that I am prepared to leave everything and everyone just to be with you my hubby? I mean that.

Just For You My Love

My dearest love,
I am never that far away from you.
The powers that be may prevent us
from contacting each other,
like any other lovers.
But I want you to know one thing,
they are ignorant of our bond for each other,
a very strong thing
a strong bond indeed,
our undying love,
our treasure trove.

Know this in your heart,
that nothing's going to change my love for you.
It remains just as strong
even when all these herculean
challenges come along.

I feel your frustration,
I know your desperation,
I have gone through this before,
all the hopelessness I too bore.

But all these too shall pass,
as in everything that never lasts.
Only our true sacred love will stand,
in front of these politics and all that's bad.

Let's accept the PAIN...
for it makes our love for each other
alot more stronger and sweeter.
Our effort to stay together will never be in vain
because we humbly accept the pain.

Let's accept the pain my love,
and know in your heart that
in the end,
everything will work our way.
For the universe is watching us
and wants us to break away
but we are here to tell it
that there is NO WAY,
absolutely NO WAY...
because I love you and you love me
and we are HERE to STAY
no matter what may come our way.

-SHF-

You Are Very Important To Me!!

You Are Very Important To Me

I am sure this you can see

my dearest darling hubby

I have placed you above

everyone and everything else

I can stop time for you

I'll make history take a back seat too

All this I'll do for you honey

because you are very important to me

I love you just the way you are.

I don't expect you to be like me

for you are in your own way a unique star,

and this I love about you tremendously.

All I ask is that you spend some time with me,

I know that from now on you'll be terribly busy.

If the roles were reversed, you know what I'll do my hubby

for you are very important to me.

If I don't hear from you, I go crazy!

I am nauseas and practically dizzy

wondering where in the world you could be?

Or have you stopped thinking about me

or worst yet...ceased loving me?

So many insecurities taunt and haunt me.

Is my mind always fooling me?

Perhaps I love you too much and

losing you is not an option for me.

Well whatever it is, YOU are important to me.

-SHF-

Separation...

I cringe in pain because I am
not sharing my life with you
It's so frustrating because I know
that I've finally found you
we are from two different nations
you have your religion
and I have none


I know what it is to feel love and be loved
I know what passion and desire can do to me
you are the source of my every need
every fibre in my body aches for thee


I don't care about anything or anyone anymore
I want you in my life...I want us to be we
to be a family
why is that so hard?
I don't want to wait my darling,
know that life is short and life is for living


I am bound I know to the laws of my country and god
but I don't care anymore and I am prepared to forsake
anything even if everyone else thinks that it's a big mistake.


Come my precious....
let's live together
don't you want me to pamper
you my honey?
Don't you want to go to bed with me every night
and wake up to your morning 'delight'?


Do we have to be fifty years old to do this?
I don't want to wait that long
just to be with you
to take care of you
to be there for you


Come what may...
I want to live in your shadow
I don't want riches and jewellery that glow
all I want is to serve you my guy
my lover, my hubby
my one and only.


I just wish that you'd feel as strongly
as I do...
no matter what trouble is
going on in your country
let me be with you
if we have to bleed
let us bleed together
nothing will make me much happier
to die in your arms as your wife
it's an honour to die in the truth of life
than to lead a life of lies.


The irony of it is that we've never met for real
and yet your true love I can strongly feel
in my heart and I know you are the one
for me, we connect...can't you see
for better or for worse I want to be with you
I want you, I want you, I want you!
Please tell me that you want me too
don't ask me to wait for so many years
you don't know this but I hide my tears
because even the near future
you tell me you are not sure
whether we can be together.


Take me away from all this
take me away please
I want to live with you
in our apartment, in our home
in our living room and our bedroom
I want to share your life...
I want to share your life...
I want to share your life...

-SHF-

GUILTY

I have every reason to feel the way I feel,
but I don't know what to call it.
There is a word and it's GUILTY,
but using guilty makes me feel guilty.


I love you
but I also lust for you.
I think about sex all the time,
whenever I think about you.


I play with myself even more now,
because you're in my life
explain this to you I don't know how.


My love for you is pure,
but this sex thing I feel for you has no cure.
It grows stronger and stronger each day,
it makes me want to do naughty things to you
night and day...everyday!


Things that I never dreamt that
I would do to a man...
for you are the fence that is built around me,
and these feelings are just not for ANYBODY.
They are only for you...
all these outrageous things that I want to do to you.


I feel guilty
because with my love for you comes
sexy, steamy, lusty
feelings all pent up inside of me.
Could it be,
could it be
that this is not what true love
is supposed to be?
And that all I feel for you is just
LUST...pure LUST?


If that were so,why do I want
to be with you so much?
Or why do I yearn for your warm, gentle touch?
Why do I miss you so?
Why can't I just let you go?
Why do I want to do
ANYTHING just for you?
Why do I want to spend the rest of my life with you?
How come I want to share your good times and your bad?
When if all I feel for you is this LUST
that anyone can have?


There is something more that I feel for you,
it's love and only love that is so true.
I should hold my head up high and feel very proud
and to the whole wide world I should scream out loud!
That I love you and only you my darling beau,
the man whom I have all this passion for
the man that is only you.


Guilty! You are no longer welcome anymore.
Get out right now!
I don't know in my mind you came about somehow,
but get out and never resurface in my life...
for what I feel for him is unconditional love
a love that is blessed by the heaven's above!


-SHF-

The Godlike Man

I don't believe that God exists
you know that for sure,
for I've told you many,many times
that God is NEVER here.

But having said that,
there's something I must tell you
and that is if there is a God at all...
He must definitely be like you.

I say this with no reservations
for what I see, I see,
that you have risen above my expectations
of what a man, my spouse should be.

I believe in your true love for me ,
the only thing I know is real.
It surpasses everything else in history,
a love I most strongly feel.

There is a kind of undefined innocence
that I see in you,
it doesn't have to be angelic
but the essence of you that
is projected to me
is largely psychedelic.

There exists kindness in your eyes
and there's the soothing of your voice.
Mild-mannered in personality,
you amaze me!
You make the impossible possible for me!
You excite me,motivate me and make an
honest woman out of me.
You are the light that shines inside of me.
You make LIFE LIVE for me.
I wake up in the morning whispering your name,
isn't that the same
as calling out God's name?

Many a times you've denied what I tell you
and you always say that you are the servant of God.
But no matter what you tell me...
in you I do see God.
Don't you inspire me?
Haven't you changed me?
You've made me so happy
isn't that what God's supposed
to be doing to me?

So let me please tell you that I am so lucky
to have your love all just for me.
I believe in you
and I'll walk that line for you,
you make things happen for me,
you are ABOVE me,
worship you I will and I can
for you to me are the godlike man.

-SHF-

Our Fantasy Love Child...

You do know that you are the love of my life

and that you are my husband and I am your wife

but our relationship is in a way a fantasy

our lives together...you there

and me here.





I want to tell you about my fantasy ,

about what may happen with you an me,

My dreams about the future for us both

that I pray one day will be a reality.





Sweetheart I've got to tell you something,

you know that day in the car

when to you I did that 'thing'?

You got all excited and we made hot, passionate love

and now you've planted a seed inside me.

Surprise! We're going to have a baby!


You're going to be a DADDY!






You look at me with utter surprise and joy

and tell me that you hope that it's a boy!

You hug me, kiss me and hold me tight,

you say, "this good news deserves a 'morning' delight".





We kiss passionately and make love over and over

you're so happy now and in my ears you whisper...

I'm so happy darling, boy are you wild!

Now you're going to be the mama of our love child.





Oh! I pray that our baby will just be like you honey,

although he or she will be a part of you and a part of me.

I hope our baby will have that black sexy mole of yours

exactly on its right cheek

or so to speak.





You'll be with me all throughout my pregnancy

you'll watch our baby grow inside of me.

Waking up next to you will be a delight for me.

Saying goodbye to you when

you're off to work will be just plain ecstasy.





And in my pregnancy,

I feel your love for me...

so much and whenever you hold me tenderly.

It's wonderful and magical

that we too can create a miracle.





They say second chances are hard to come by

but it CAN happen to us both if we only try.

It's up to the both of us to make things happen

I want it so much,don't you want it too my dearest husband?





Darling, nothing more will make me this happy

to make this fantasy a reality.

It's all in your hands...

all you have to say is a strong 'yes' and

I'll come to you now as I am,

to share your life, your bed and everything.





Tell me you want this as much as I do,

you know that I can't live without you.

So, until you're sure

for you I'm always here

my lover, my hubby

come let's make this fantasy a reality.





-SHF-

I Am So Sorry Na...

Sorry seems to be the hardest word


but it's used the easiest when one is hurt


Sorry is a safety net


when things between people go very bad








I am sorry...

truly am sorry

with what happened between we

between us



You didn't have to forgive me

but you did because you love me so

but if you didn't forgive me,

I wouldn't know where else to go

to get your absolute pardon

for what I had done

You were patient although angry

with the things I said...with me

I could sense it somehow

although you kept your cool

and didn't say anything out loud





I felt bad enough for being a bitch


on the phone with you


for hurting you with my words


but at that time....it didn't seem that worse


it became bad when what I did


I thought back deeply about it.








But now that you've forgiven me

I feel so relieved...believe me!

To know that everything's okay

between us completely.




They say love means

never having to say you are sorry

but I beg to differ in this situation of mine

for you are a man I love and respect the most

and to receive your forgiveness is divine




I shan't take my apology in vain

this I assure you my love

for sorry is not something to use

like an over used, worn out glove!!





-SHF-

WHO AM I TO YOU?

Who am I to you?

Tell me please who am I to you?

I really want to know who am I to you?

Don't you want to know too?

I know who I am to your heart

but who am I in your mind sweetheart?

I beg of you...

please tell me who am I to you?

Am I someone you need to make you feel good?

Tell me who am I to you?

I 'hate' everyone else BUT love only you

so tell me who am I to you?

I trust you with my life

because I think that I am your wife

if you ask me to walk into pitch black darkness

I would because YOU that much I trust

So tell me who am I to you?

Why do you need so much time

to figure out who I am to you?

I have everything to lose

should you choose

to let me go...

perhaps because they don't like me so

So I want to know

just exactly who am I to you?

I know I can't live without you

You to me I definitely know who

but now you tell me who am I to you?

Please TELL ME the TRUTH.

You are in the red powder

on the top of my forehead

that I apply each day.

This tells you WHO you are to me

in a very sacred way,

but you tell me, who am I to you today?

Are you planning to hide me away from those

that you know?

IF that's the case,

we definitely can't go out together

in December...

in the winter

when I come there.

Come what may...

I'll brave anyone who comes in my way

I love you that much can't you see?

You are everything to me,

but am I like that to you too?

So tell me who am I to you?

Only you'll know the absolute truth.

-SHF-

Love In The Jacuzzi

If I were in the jacuzzi with you

do you know what I'll do?

Get completely naked first

and I know so will you.





We'll do what comes naturally,

discover each other's bodies.

Touching, feeling and heavy petting,

deep kissing, cuddling and stimulating .

Oral sex is what we'll first indulge

with your manhood in my wet mouth
what a really big bulge !

All the way down my deep throat

gag me if you please

for there is pleasure in this sort of tease.





It's then your turn to spread my legs

and in the gushing sound of bubbles in the tub,

your tongue you rub, rub and rub

on you know where

the centre of all my pleasure





We can't wait can we?

For there is this dire need

for you to enter inside me

and I wanting you to pump me slowly





To see you stand in the water and ram me

with my legs spread wide open, it's poetry

we are enjoying each other profusely

that's what sex is all about in the jacuzzi!!





It seems a very long time

before we both cum and cum

right there

in the jacuzzi

life cannot get better than this .





I love to see the reddening of your face,

and then we both embrace.

I plant you a long, loving kiss,

and you want to do it again

this you stubbornly insist!





Okay my sweet pea

come do me!

I welcome you again

with my bouncy ass wide open

this time from the rear for sure

you like this position better.

I love to be sodomized

by you my darling many times...

there is this thrill of doing it differently

for it's still love in the jacuzzi.



-SHF-

Back In Your Village

These are the times when I miss you the most

when you are back in your village

on your festive holiday

far,far away

I know that you're having a great time

with your many,many cousins

playing cards, joking and laughing

crop inspecting and connecting

with what the villagers have to say

You remind me of a village chieftain's son

a movie that I once watched on Zee TV

so handsome and in your finest green apparel

attracting all the curious village belles

Don't you think that I worry about you?

Everyday you are there, it's torture that

I'm going through.

Perhaps mama will find you a pretty, young girl

to marry you off and declare this union to the world!

What's then to become of me?

The woman you've married secretly?

I've given you everything already

I wonder whether you

honestly think about me

when you are there

you're so busy chatting with

your cousin sisters and brothers

that you may not even spare a little thought

to your lonely, lovesick wife and loyal lover.

It's different with me you know

you are there always in my thoughts

WHEREVER I go

I cannot get you out of my mind

you come to my senses all the time.

Everything reminds me of you my love

even the crows that fly in the sky above

every sound that comes to my ears

even the wind whispers

to me about you

the state of you, the essence of you.

Let me stand under the street light

in the complete darkness of the night

Let me perform my love dance for you

in the nude...yes in the nude!

This is what I see,

I am all alone standing on a dark stage,

when you are back in your village.

Come back to me fast I beg of you

don't stay there too long...

I'll die without you.

You know that I'll burn for you

if it is what I must do...

Perhaps in my passion and deep love for you

I sometimes do the craziest things,

only because it's my way of shouting

that I'm here for you...

alive and kicking.

Our relationship's not a joke

it's not to be hidden under a cloak.

I detest the times when you make me non-exsitent

when other people are in your presence

I wish that you would tell them I'm yours

and that I'm your business and not theirs.

Who are they to judge you

with what you've already been through?

You have the right to carve your own life

Why then did you make me your WIFE!

This heart throbs for you

it has never stopped beating for you

I am the only one who truly cares for you

and I take interest in whatever you do

I'm so concerned about you

and I hate people taking advantage of you.

I long for you my darling
Can't you feel that my arms are aching
just to hold you so close to me?
My love for you always comes of age
when you are back in your village.



So is it Saturday or Sunday that you are returning?
I prefer Saturday than Sunday my darling
Please come back to me fast
I don't know whether this long I'll last
without you my dearest sweetheart



Please come home soon
For I am waiting for you
Just to see your smiling face again
Your presence will take away all my pain
Come back to me again and again
my lover, my husband, the main
man of my life
this is your wife
wanting you to come back from your village
come back to us and we
come back to just you and me
come back soon please.



-SHF-

The Great White One Eyed Snake

Hello to you my great white one eyed snake!
You are unique because you only have one eye
You’ve dwelled outside the cave for far too long
But now the cave is open for your romantic throng



The cave in which you will go
Was shut down so many years ago
I want to see you slither through
The narrow,slippery interior of the cave
And work your wonderful magic
To thrill my curiosity and
my undefined logic



You have rested too much somewhere outside
It’s time to nestle inside the cave I provide
For your nourishment and deserving comfort
A home of your very own to trumpet



You are beautiful in my eyes
The way you look just mystifies
Me …your place to be



Your trunk is long and white in colour
Shaped just perfectly by Mother Nature
I shall call you a predator
But you only predate me
Let’s call it a conjoining victory



Hey great white one eyed snake
Do you know that you look great?
You haven’t slued inside the cave yet
How would you like to be my only pet?



There is a splendiferous blue bulging vein that
Flows all the way down your body
I can't wait for you to show it to me

Of course then there is your majestic smooth head
Its form is just consummate, so polished better than perfect!
Then you have your one cute black eye

That looks like a hole more than an eye
Can you see the cave and
spray your venom directly inside?



Your venom is the sweetest drink of life I must consume
For it doesn’t kill or hurt me nor cause any doom
Go on and secrete your juice in the cave you dwell
Or better still, on my face and on my bosom as well



It will sustain me…flourish in me
Perhaps create a life inside me
Oh! My great white one eyed snake
Know that you only belong to me
My own creature of unspoken delights
I never want to leave you out of my sight



Destiny will bring me to you
To find you and take good care of you
For I am your custodian and
Will make all your dreams come true
You are my only great white snake
Mine to keep and mine to take
Impatiently for you I must wait
For you are the great white one eyed snake!


-SHF-