Will You Make Rough Love to Me Tonight?

I know that you are not here with me my love,
so I thought that I'll write this to you.

Here is your wife's desperate plight
will you make rough love to me tonight?

Ironic isn't it when you are there
and I want you now but I am here?

My blood is boiling with so much desire
for the man I love and married...yes you my master

Oh...if only I could fly away tonight
just land on your bed and grab you tight

I want you to be kind and cruel to my body
just beat me and bruise me gently

Use your feet to massage my swollen breasts
scratch me, bite me and be mean to me

Let me feel the pain of your love
let me feel the pleasure of your love

Will you slap my face and ass as well?
Will you rock inside me both ways?

Take me to heaven and as well as to hell
you know what I want and I'm sure you can tell.

There is no wrong in this rough act of love
for we both will enjoy it...me below and you above

Just be my master and I be your slave
command me, torture me...let me cry to be free

Oh darling....I WANT you...just rape me with all your might
Will you make rough love to me tonight?

-SHF-

Welcome Home Darling

If you could see inside my soul
see inside my heart
you would know how I long for you
whenever we’re apart

If you could see inside my head
if thoughts were things to see
you would know how I cherish you
how much you mean to me

In all the ways you comfort me
the way you hold me near
the way you know just what to do
to chase away my fear

The sparkle in your deep set eyes
your smile, your laugh, your voice and your touch
are just a few of many reasons
why I love you oh so very much

Knowing I can talk to you
about anything and everything
and knowing together we will get
through whatever life may bring

I could search the whole world over
and this I know is true
I would never find another love
like the love I found with you

Though with each new day, each sunrise
we can’t know what’s in store
there is one thing I know for sure
each day I love you so much more

So if you could see inside my head
if thoughts were things to see
you would know how blessed I feel
to have you here with me

So let me say to you with joy
Welcome home my love
Each time you go and come back to me
Your face is all I see
I miss you lots but you already know
when you come back...I'll let it show
oh my hubby...
you are the only ONE for me.


-SHF-

Your Gift

Your gift was the best gift
that I received

It made me cry tears of joy
it made me happy so happy
it consumed me...it thrilled me


Your hand-writing was perfect
I NEVER saw any defect

Your words were true
they made me MISS you
they were like honey
slowly oozing in my hungry mouth...
wish I could read more of them
wish I could drink more of them


What you sent me was PRICELESS
I wouldn't trade it for the world
for YOU are my world
my sole destiny
the ONE within me

Thank you my love
I can only thank you
I can't show you HOW MUCH I love you
I can only tell you


The day WILL come when I am with you
solely there for you
until then I live, eat and breathe you
and cherish your letter too.


-SHF-

Jaan...

Jaan...there is only you
for you are the JOY of my life.

Jaan...I only see you
for I am blind to others.


Jaan...it's your voice that I hear
for I don't want to hear anything else.


Jaan...if it weren't for you...
I would have been no more
yes! That's for sure.

How can I thank you...
all I can say is that there is only YOU.

How can I love you more?
For I have NEVER loved you any less...

I will do ANYTHING for you...
Jaan just tell me what to do.
My world here without you
is so empty and meaningless and UNTRUE.

How do I live here alone without you
Jaan!!!
I'd rather feel the pain of being scorched by fire...
for it'll only last awhile...
but to stay here without you with me,
it seems to last an eternity.

The more I miss you...
the more I want you
and WANT to be with you...

Jealous am I of others that feast their eyes on you
but I am here and so what can I do?
You tell me what should I do?


You tell me that everything has its good and its bad
But I know not of anything bad when it comes to you
PERFECT are you
Just PERFECT are you.


Take me with you Jaan
hold my hand and embrace me Jaan
just take me with you
I know I am yours and you are mine
but please don't leave me behind...


Jaan...there is only you
for you are the JOY of my life.


-SHF-

Do You Know How Much I Love You?

Considering the sudden turn of events

that have happened to the both of us

I feel that I must tell you this

also because you were worried today

to tell me everything that you needed to say

Oh honey! You'll never ever know

no matter how much I had described to you

what I had gone through

YOUR pain I had suffered too

how I had to be cool

and yet inside me

this cancerous woe was eating me slowly!

Now that things are looking up for us again

It's only fair that I ask you

Do you know how much I love you?

Bad times had come and are slowing fading away

but honey...I am still here to stay

and I want you to know that I will

NEVER look the other way

when it comes to you

for I LOVE YOU.

You are suffering too...

You said that and it'll take a month or two

just for you to be as good as new

but it does not matter to me at all

for I always believe that LOVE conquers ALL

So...I am telling you for the LAST time

to throw away all your worries

shove them out the door

and DOUBT my love and loyalty to you no more

I love you my hubby

for the person that you are

my darling...it's you

my ever shining star!

You don't have to perform acrobatic stunts

to prove something to me

for I love you my darling hubby

just as you are

just as you will be

just the man I love and married

No more telling me that you are sorry
and that you owe me
you OWE me NOTHING but your true love
for it's PRICELESS!!

Now do you know how much I love you?
I'll do anything in my power to show you
how much I love you

Nothing is more important than YOU,YOU,YOU!



Darling,
I am hoping and praying

that you will NO LONGER be worried
or despair
or even doubt for a moment
about your wife's love who's not there
by your side at the moment



Don't be sorry for what you CANNOT do now
it's NOT your fault
we'll get through this somehow

there is always GOD



I want you to take care of yourself
do whatever it is that you have to do

and get completely well soon!
Do you know how much I love you?



I'll burn for you if I must
just to win your trust
for I love you so much
I long for your passionate touch
Just your touch will do
for I just love YOU and only YOU!



Now do you know how much
I love you?


-SHF-

Will You Believe Me?

Will you believe me if I were to tell you
that I am always thinking about you?

Will you believe me if I were to tell you
that I am longing so much for you?

Will you believe me if I were to tell you
that my day is NEVER complete without looking
at your photos?

Will you believe me if I were to tell you
that I cry everyday and pray hard everyday for you?

Will you believe me if I were to tell you
that I DO IT at least once a day to be
CLOSE to you?

Will you believe me if I were to tell you
that I am so tensed and nervous because
I don't really get any news from you?

Will you believe me if I were to tell you
that I log on all the time just so I can see you?
But when you are home...
where are you?

Will you believe me if I were to tell you
that I am always wondering what's going on in your mind?
Are you alright and what news there is of you?

Will you believe me if I were to tell you
that I'll give my life for you
that you will be safe again
and that all this will go away...

Will you believe me honey
that I Love you ETERNALLY?

-SHF-

Are You Losing Your Love For Me?

I know our situation...
But even so...
I am somehow reaching out to you
telling you how much I love you
how much I need you and miss you
asking how you are doing
and if everything's alright.


But you seem distant from me
yes you write that you love me
but you don't say you miss me
or even if you are thinking about me


I am beginning to fear
for the very thing that is to me so dear
your love for me I see
is somehow fading slowly


You know how you can reach me
tell me HERE how much you miss me
but so far you haven't written a thing
and this is to me very distressing


I write so many things just for you
I don't know whether you are listening to them,
reading them thoroughly and through
this is the only way I can reach you hubby
tell me, are you losing your love for me?


I cannot rest until I know the truth from you
because 'situations' can make you change
your feelings towards me
but I pray that this is not to be
for I LOVE YOU SINCERELY


I think about you constantly
do you think about me?
I miss you terribly
do you feel the same towards me?
When you don't tell me these things
I become very afraid and then sets in misery
Tell me my love...
Are you losing your love for me?


Please think about our bond
it is no ordinary bond
the oath we took to be together
we are joined in our conscience forever
there is no letting go whatsoever



I can't live without you and your love
I need you to love me
please my husband...
tell me
are you losing your love for me?


-SHF-

Because of You...

You are the only source of my happiness
I began to bloom because of you

Because of you...
I am here today through and through

Because of you...
I look forward to a new day


Because of you...
I am a woman loving you

Can they block out the sun that shines on me?
Can they pluck me from the ground
and make no more of me?
Can they no longer let me bask in the sun
when we both know our lives have just begun?

Again because of you...
I am clinging on to the truth
Because of you...
I am still here waiting for news from you

I hate this silence which I hope is temporary
because I don't know what I'll do
if you, I can't see

I am willing to wait for you patiently
as long as we'll be together permanently
I TRUST you greatly
Because of you...
I need you as much as you need me
I stand bravely.


-SHF-

I'm Suffering In Pain Too

My darling...
My heart sank when you told me about your arms and back
How I wish I could kiss your swollen arms
and caress your stiff back...


I cannot believe that this had happened to you
My innocent husband....
You would never cause any harm to anyone
but now what's done is done


I had hurt myself too
For when you told me what had happened to you
I had hurt myself too


I scorched my left arm with my hot iron
and now my arm is also in pain
at least I get the satisfaction
of knowing that I am in pain
but I know no matter what I do
my pain is NOTHING compared to
what you'd have gone through


This is the only way to show you
HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU
Please don't worry about me
I pray hard everyday
for the safety of you and your family


I miss you more than I've ever had before
now that there is silence between us
I miss you every minute...
it gets worse when I cannot tell you
what's usually going on with my life
for I am your wife...I am your wife...I am your wife


My darling...I look at your photos
that I had printed everyday
I hear your voice reverberating
every moment when I am thinking
about you...night and day


I cry everyday thinking about us
a love so true...
in this cruel twist of fate
that has happened to us of late
our love does not deserve this
DAMN those insects!
Those pesky pests!


But I want you to know that time will heal
Time is the best cure
for us both I feel
Let the dust settle down as you told me
I want to believe, I want to believe
Then slowly but SURELY
TOGETHER WE WILL BE!!


I need you to believe this
as much as I believe in this
Please tell me you are with me
For I love you so much my hubby



Time is not my enemy
but my fear is that you'll forget me
it's easy when there is so much FEAR and TERROR
around you my hubby
but please my darling
you are my LIFE
I mean this to be true
for there's no future for me without you
Please hold my hand and NEVER let go...
For I love you dearly so
For I love you dearly so
For I love you dearly so

-SHF-(I am alright. I am fine.)

Passage To Karachi

I long to be in your arms Karachi
Oh when, when will you kiss and cradle me?
Will you accept me....
as the daughter of your city?
Will you not welcome me with open arms?
My nerves are never calm
until I am safe in your palms...

When will my passage to Karachi be?
When can I be yours sincerely?

My Life is there in you oh honourable Karachi
Please take care of Him for me
I am hoping that our situation is just temporary
that...soon one day I'll start my life in Karachi

I want Him safely nestled in your arms
protect Him please and keep Him from harm
Do this for me dear Karachi
before I come to your city
My passage to Karachi
my homeland ultimately.

-SHF-

When Hope Is Fading...

I want to be positive about us
I have been very positive about us
but lately...
things are not going the way they should be


My darling husband...
are we really going to meet soon?
Will we consummate our relationship
as it should be?


Eight months we are married
and I still wait for OUR day patiently
but days are running in a hurry
am I to remain just your wife in 'TRANSIT'?


You know I'm trying my best
to see you there
but it looks like 'where we'll stay'
is a BIG problem there


I'm ready to pack my bags and run to you
In March or April
whichever month suits you
but looking at your endeavours
that seem to be futile
tell me one thing baby
will I see you before I die?


Is our bond going to be a webcam thing?
For you and I are married without our rings...
it's so sad that I've finally found you
only to NEVER meet you
and NOT make our dreams come true


We can't just have faith that we'll meet soon
we have to make it happen
if not...March will be April and April will be June
and pretty soon
faith will slacken
what will to us then happen?


I have all my hopes on you
I breathe for you
You made me live again
please don't let me die in vain



A love like ours is so strong
it's a beautiful bond
but what good is such a bond
when our bodies don't JOIN?
I then am your wife in name only
and you are my husband...just the man who married me.


Honey should I die today...I'll remain a restless spirit
a dissatisfied entity...
who's soul will NEVER rest in peace
for my love for you will LIVE
but you won't find me there
my love for you to GIVE


I just want to think about the two of us
I have a right to want my happiness
for you know that my happiness is your happiness
and vice versa...for the two of us


I am no saint...
I am only human
I'm just a wife
WHO WANTS TO BE WITH HER HUSBAND.

-SHF-

I See Happiness In You

I'll tell you a story

not like any other story

but about you and about me

Can you believe me?

That you truly make me happy?

Just being who you are

My darling, my dearest, my superstar!

I will NEVER call you by your name

for I hold you dearer than myself

I respect you in the highest degree

for you make me happy

It's true that I see happiness in you

for you and only for you my love is true

I will be with you soon

and we'll both 'fly' to the moon

Oh HAPPINESS...I say this a million times

you are my universe...

my shiny star that forever shines

You are mine, all mine and forever mine

We are bound by the shackles of LOVE

a love so true and that WILL stand the test of time

I shall be yours forever

and you shall forever be MINE!

-SHF-