I am Shama

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I am a happy individual and I LOVE life. Some people say that I am too passionate about the things that are dear to me but I say..."Hey! You only live once!" I love to write about very simple things like the people and things that I have observed, childhood and teenage memories,about love and marriage etc. I am also into quite alot of poetry writing these days. Enjoy reading my fellow readers and fans. ;)

Friday, February 6, 2009

I'm Suffering In Pain Too


My darling...
My heart sank when you told me about your arms and back
How I wish I could kiss your swollen arms
and caress your stiff back...


I cannot believe that this had happened to you
My innocent husband....
You would never cause any harm to anyone
but now what's done is done


I had hurt myself too
For when you told me what had happened to you
I had hurt myself too


I scorched my left arm with my hot iron
and now my arm is also in pain
at least I get the satisfaction
of knowing that I am in pain
but I know no matter what I do
my pain is NOTHING compared to
what you'd have gone through


This is the only way to show you
HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU
Please don't worry about me
I pray hard everyday
for the safety of you and your family


I miss you more than I've ever had before
now that there is silence between us
I miss you every minute...
it gets worse when I cannot tell you
what's usually going on with my life
for I am your wife...I am your wife...I am your wife


My darling...I look at your photos
that I had printed everyday
I hear your voice reverberating
every moment when I am thinking
about you...night and day


I cry everyday thinking about us
a love so true...
in this cruel twist of fate
that has happened to us of late
our love does not deserve this
DAMN those insects!
Those pesky pests!


But I want you to know that time will heal
Time is the best cure
for us both I feel
Let the dust settle down as you told me
I want to believe, I want to believe
Then slowly but SURELY
TOGETHER WE WILL BE!!


I need you to believe this
as much as I believe in this
Please tell me you are with me
For I love you so much my hubby



Time is not my enemy
but my fear is that you'll forget me
it's easy when there is so much FEAR and TERROR
around you my hubby
but please my darling
you are my LIFE
I mean this to be true
for there's no future for me without you
Please hold my hand and NEVER let go...
For I love you dearly so
For I love you dearly so
For I love you dearly so

-SHF-(I am alright. I am fine.)

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

Shama...is this poem for real? It sounds like a Bollywood movie!

I don't think that in real life...no wife would do what this woman did just to prove her love to her husband...or here...to feel the pain that he's going through. To scorch the skin on the arm must have been very painful. What was she thinking? She must be really in love with him to do such a thing.

She must be really in some sort of deep depression I think.

DECISIVE

Anonymous said...

I thought gone were the days when women used to jump in the funeral pyre just to be with their husbands. But here...he's alive...he has some arm and back pains and here the wife goes burning her skin!
What kind of a message are you sending out to us women Shama!

I gather that the couple are apart...more like some geographical and political situation involved here.

Anyway...it is also a very touching poem. Just hope that it is fiction.


Renuka Malwani(INDIA)

Anonymous said...

I like this poem but the thing that I found unbelievable is the part that the wife hurt herself when she found out that her husband was hurt.

Maybe it's not true. I don't think a wife can love her husband THAT MUCH. That was those days...now, marriage is more like a partnership than anything else.

However, if this poem is based on a true account...then I must say that this guy is ONE HELL OF A LUCKY MAN! I really hope that he knows that and that he'll join his wife soon.

Hello MR HUSBAND who doesn't harm anyone....perhaps it is your GOOD HEART that you have such a loyal wife who loves you so much. Many guys would envy what you have.

Just don't betray her, she should be the one you should TRUST with your life and NEVER disappoint her.

Beautiful,touching poem Shama. You are so creative.


Faroukh Hassan(Mumbai,INDIA)