A Letter To My Husband

My darling dearest,

It's been days since I last saw you on webcam. I know that times are hard there where you are. The separation that we are going through now is just temporary. Yet, I cannot help but worry about you my darling.

I think about you all the time. I am so deeply in love with you that I am weak without hearing your voice and looking at your face. I need your strength to go on living my days here. I will only be complete when I am there lying in your strong arms.

Do you know how much I am suffering emotionally here without you? Not being able to sms you whenever I want, not being able to call you many times a day or even talk freely to you on the phone? I only have your photos to take with me to bed. I dress in front of your photo, I cry in front of your photo and I laugh in front of your photo.

I must have kissed your photo a thousand times today. When can we be free from all these challenges my darling? I didn't know that as much as love can bring so much joy, it can also bring immense pain. The pain is so unbearable my love. I feel as though something has cleft my heart in two. I am just existing here. Going about my day like a robot. I don't have you to breathe life into me. I don't really know how I had ever lived before knowing you. Darling you have such an impact in the way I think, feel and move. I wonder whether you too suffer the same intensity of pain that I am feeling without you right now.

Why don't you try to call me my love? Why do I have to call you always? You have my phone number. You say that you miss me so much and yet you don't take the effort to call me? Don't they have phone shops that allow you to make international calls there? Sometimes my love for this is what I feel right now...I am going the distance for you and you don't seem to do the same. It is that extra effort that you put in wanting to keep in touch with me that I don't see from you. I feel sad about it.

Perhaps I am wrong. I thought I'd say this to you. Whom else can I tell such things but to the man I love and adore very much...you my husband.
You've told me alot of things recently that don't make any sense to me. All this cloak and dagger operation when I am talking to you on the phone. I hope that when all these troubles clear, you will explain to me and I want to be satisfied with your explanation my darling.

I am your wife. You are my husband. Know in your heart that I am there with you always. My darling, you have a bad fever. I wish I was there to take care of you. I wish I was there to kiss your forehead and nurse you...take the fever away. But I can't do that at the moment darling. I know that mama is taking good care of you.

Please tell her that I send her my love. Please send my kissess to our girls. I hope that you'll take them out for a movie on Saturday. I wish I could be there with you and our girls. We'll definitely have alot of fun. First, take a long stroll along the beautiful beach, you and I holding hands and we see our girls enjoying the sea and the breeze and running along the sea shore, and then go for a movie.

Please take care of yourself. Please darling, try to reduce your smoking. I am sure that you have been very tensed up these past few days and you would have smoked more than you should. I am very concerned about your health. I want us both to live a very long and fruitful life my sweetheart. I know that I can't call you over the weekend. I am going to miss you so much more. Once you are online my darling, you have alot of e-messages and videos that I have sent you. Until you come online, this is your wife signing off.

I love you so much. I can't imagine my life without you...a thousand kissess to you my darling.

Your Wife

-SHF-