Letting Go

Dear readers, this is a short story. A story about a husband and a wife. The story is in dialogue form. I want you to think and picture what is going on here. It's just a story......on a higher level, there is a subtle message here.
















Wife: I want to talk to you Abhi

Husband: What is it Warya? You don't look happy. Something wrong? Please tell me.

Wife: I don't know how to tell you this...I know that you'll be hurt. I am so sorry but I can't go on living like this anymore. I have tried but I just can't go on like this anymore.

Husband: You're scaring me Warya. What's wrong? I am afraid of what you are going to tell me.

Wife: You afraid? You have never been afraid of anything...why should you be afraid now?

Husband: I feel as though I know what it is that you are going to tell me.

Wife: It's good if you know it already. I don't have to tell you.

Husband: Tell me...tell me now Warya.

Wife: I am in love. So deeply in love with someone else.

Husband: What! Come on Warya. Are you serious? Are you joking woman?

Wife: Please Abhi. I am not joking. I want to go to him. I want to be with him. I love him so much and cannot bear to be apart from him anymore.

Husband: Since when have you loved him? Who is this guy? Are you having an affair with him?

Wife: Yes, I am having an affair with him...virtually and we've been in love for over 2 years now.

Husband: What do you mean virtually? I don't understand you! What are you saying?


Wife: I met him on the internet and we are both deeply in love with each other.


Husband: Oh I see. He's fake then. Just a fantasy of yours...a person you can pass your time with. You better get a job and do something meaningful in your life. I think all this free time on your hands has made you not so stable in the head. You are talking nonsense.

Wife: I am not talking nonsense Abhi! Listen to me. I am in love with him. I want him and need him and I want to go to him!!

Husband: Look Warya! Have you forgotten that we are married? You are my wife! We've been married for 10 years. Good god! What has this guy done to you? Where is he staying? Do you know anything about him

Wife: I know who I am...you don't have to tell me Abhi. The truth is...I have stopped loving you all these years. I was just duty bound as your wife. You have become more like a brother, a good friend to me. I just can't explain it. I don't feel any passion for you. I am merely existing with you. But him... by the way I do know a lot about him including his mother and his children. He's divorced and I don't have to tell you anything else. I feel a desire so strongly for him that I cannot explain. His desire for me is equally strong. He wants me Abhi....something that you have never felt for me. You have never seen me as a woman...you just married me and gave me food, clothing and shelter...and YES...you are a great provider but you were never my lover. I am talking about sex Abhi. The same topic that you always avoid when I talk to you about it. For once in my life...someone really wants me and my womanhood. All these years with you...I had to suppress my feelings, my desires...simply because you don't like sex. I thought that something was terribly wrong with me. I must say that for awhile, I consoled myself into thinking that I would overlook this problem of yours and concentrate on your good points. You are a wonderful man Abhi but I am no longer prepared to live with you and your kindness. You are a gem of a man but I am not a merchant to buy it. Sex is important in a marriage and I have suffered terribly without it.

Husband: Warya...sex is not everything in a marriage. Haven't I bought you things? What about the trips we took and the happy times that we've had? Are you trying to tell me that you've lived a lie all these years?

Wife: You gave me things that I needed but you NEVER gave me what I wanted despite all the begging that I had done to get you to be intimate with me. Yes, we did have our good times...not all my years with you were a lie...but what about all the silent tears that I had cried and the sexual frustrations that I had to go through all those years? I was in my early 20's Abhi! I wanted you so much but you pushed me away in our early years of marriage. After so much of pleading, you would then give in...but you NEVER made love to me Abhi...you just had sex with me for 2 minutes and that's all and it's over. Do you know that I have never had an orgasm with you? Never Ever Abhi. I had to masturbate for that. Yes, I faked it just so you'd perform better the next time but you never did. You never allowed me to make love to you either or explore your body!! You don't even know what foreplay is man! I had begged you too many times to see a sex therapist but you always refused calling me a sex maniac.

Look Abhi...I love this man and our relationship is not all about sex but sex IS very much in our relationship. Goodbye Abhi. You'll be hearing from my lawyer.

Husband: Warya...I am not going to beg you to stay...but what about the 10 years that I had spent with you? I really love you Warya...you know I do. I took care of you when you were sick. Remember? Do you think that this guy of yours will take care of you like what I had done for you?

Wife: Abhi! You forget that I was there for you in your bad times too. I know you love me but you don't want to LOVE me. That's your problem. It'll never be solved until you get some professional help. This guy has a name. His name is Hashindan and he loves me and cares for me. I know in my heart that he'll take care of me as I will of him. Our strong bond and love for each other will find a way and overcome any obstacles that we may face. We were married in the eyes of our conscience and in our cyberworld. We have made our solemn promises to each other. As crazy as that may seem to you Abhi...we both honour our vows...and it is more meaningful than that piece of paper that you and I both signed 10 years ago.

Husband: You are breaking our sacred vows that we took in front of the fire...what about the mangalsutra that I had tied around your neck? You will go to hell for this.

Wife: You can keep your chain. Here it is. You say that I am breaking my sacred vows? What about you? You vowed to be my husband...but you failed terribly in your connubial duties. Isn't that breaking a sacred vow? Society may see otherwise but I don't see it as that. Isn't true love between a man and a woman sacred? Well in your god's eyes...he and I are one. Our love is pure because we both have experienced true love for the first time regardless of race and religion and we love each other very deeply. This is how it should be. Who is to say that God will send me to hell for this? No one knows...everything sacred that is written is man made. Good bye Abhi. Good bye forever.